Today is the day.
The moving company arrives this morning.
We move out tomorrow.
The furniture arrives at the new place on Saturday.
I begin my new job/ministry on Sunday.
People have been asking me how I feel. My answer has been “Mostly excited with a side order of terrified”. Today the side order has become the main course.
I do want to make one thing clear at this point. I have no reservations about this new job. I am really excited by the challenge, I’m happy because Redeemer already feels like home and I am more than ready for the change. They seem very excited about me coming as well. Everyone here is sure that I’m going to do a great job.
And yes, all that is making me a little jumpy.
There is something called the “imposter phenomenon”, where people who are successful don’t feel like they earned it. I’ve always had a slight dose of that. Consequently, I’m always afraid that I’m going to let the people around me down. People who believe I can help them. People who believe in me.
I’ve never acknowledged this before. This new position is a time for me to begin anew. I believe in my ability to do this job. I can’t guarantee success. But I can guarantee that I will give everything I have. And, if I’m being honest, that’s always worked before.
I believe it’s going to work this time too.
Which means I need to leave this part of my life behind as well.
I can do this. I have the experience and the gifts.
I’m ready for my next real job.
Now I know what that will be.
And I’ll keep you up to date on how that goes.