This is so frustrating.
Let me tell you about “The Other Guy”.
The Other Guy is my name for me when I was over 200 pounds. I was unhappy and out of shape. Clothes felt uncomfortable so I just wore them as baggy as possible. My body hurt and it was hurting. The blood tests got worse and worse as I got older and older.
I need to be honest here. I hate The Other Guy. I don’t ever want him in my life again. When I look in the mirror and see him creeping back into my life I get angry. I feel like crap mentally and physically.
It was easier being The Other Guy when I hadn’t been The Guy. The Guy is me when the weight was off. 173 pounds. In shape. Fitting into clothes sizes that I hadn’t seen in 25+ years. The Guy had energy, he felt good and he knew he looked good. Being The Guy means knowing just how miserable The Other Guy was.
My knee is slowly getting better. I’ve worked out every day this week and my eating has been better. It was too late to help this week’s weigh in but at least I’ve gotten that under a little more control. The number is good but the bad news has slowed down.
Next week will tell me if this is real or if I’m just kidding myself.
I want to be The Guy again.
My resolution remains :
Time to name the next goal. I like them to be reasonable and achievable for my short term goals (the long term one is at the bottom here). So we take it five pounds at a time. 185, I’m looking at you.
Official Weigh In Weight
Weight Change this week – +0.6 pounds
Total Weight Loss To Date – 8.2 pounds
Goal Weight and Total to Lose – 175/30